I don't know how I got here, I just know the excruciating pain that I'm in.
I never pictured it ending like this.
So abrupt
All I could do was gaze at the sky out of the window and watch it darken as the time passed
The day was just another idle day, how could it turn sharply like this?
My mind is foggy trying to remember what I did last.
I do all I can to stay calm, they always tell you to stay calm in these situations.
You can cuddle your anger like a raggedy childhood blanket from the past.
Silence floods the room filling every corner.
The level rises until everybody drowns
Thursday, December 29, 2011
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Interstate
Flowing down the
interstate like it's a river
Lines fly by like fish
headed upstream
Rain drops tip toe
across my windshield.
I want this freedom
No, I've earned this
freedom.
The road climbs up the
gigantic mountain
The storm festers up
top just waiting for my arrival.
Green signs give names
to the unknown places.
They really are
meaningless if you don't have a destination in mind.
Challenges, spontaneous moments and fulfillment live here.
As do I.
Thursday, September 22, 2011
Airport thoughts..
The airport was so cold, so impersonal.
but deep down that's the reason I like it here.
Surrounded by people but no obligations to connect
Muffled voices of the surrounding crowds comfort me
Everyone here is so different yet so the same
The sounds of heels and dress shoes hitting the terminal floor
Rushing by , always in a hurry.
The whiff of Cologne that reminds you of a moment from the past.
It tingles my noise and awakens my senses.
Numbers and times flash across the blue illuminated board
Connect me to my next flight
Here I go again.
but deep down that's the reason I like it here.
Surrounded by people but no obligations to connect
Muffled voices of the surrounding crowds comfort me
Everyone here is so different yet so the same
The sounds of heels and dress shoes hitting the terminal floor
Rushing by , always in a hurry.
The whiff of Cologne that reminds you of a moment from the past.
It tingles my noise and awakens my senses.
Numbers and times flash across the blue illuminated board
Connect me to my next flight
Here I go again.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Make me your art
My focus has shifted onto my self now
I am now my focal point, so zoom in and sharpen that image
Just don't over expose it
I want to see ribs
Make my green eyes glow
I want the light to swim across my body
emerge me in your light
Create with me
Speak through me
Once more
In a few days I will be on a red eye flight headed out on another one of my adventures. Baltimore will be my first stop followed by DC and St.Louis. This will probably be my last east coast trip until early 2012. I will be booking for mainly the west coast during the winter months.
I will have my passport early October, I'm very thrilled about this.
Saturday, September 10, 2011
Shooting with my horse
Eric Lowenburg wrote a blurb about our shoot with my horse here in Salem.:) His MM page is http://www.modelmayhem.com/1179757 if you would like to check him out. Here's what he wrote:
"08 September found me in the Salem, Oregon area to again be fortunate enough to shoot with the very lovely and talented Miss Redrose.
We worked during the morning with my new horse friend Lady who is a gorgeous Arabian Mare. Lady proved to be a wonderful model, very patient and cooperative. She is however the first model that I have shot that was grazing during the shoot. Lady and Miss Redrose were the perfect combination for a great shooting with a mix of artistic nudes and lifestyle images.
Lady got to spend the afternoon at pasture telling her other horse friends about her morning while I made the drive back to San Francisco. It was a very enjoyable morning of shooting taking advantage of the heat wave in Oregon. Temps that day were going to be close to 95 under a nearly perfect sky for lighting -- just a very slight diffusing haze and occasional high cloud. All in all a fantastic morning. Miss Redrose is a wonderful model with a great look that always gives her best for a shooting -- and she can park a horse trailer better than any guy I know.
"
"08 September found me in the Salem, Oregon area to again be fortunate enough to shoot with the very lovely and talented Miss Redrose.
We worked during the morning with my new horse friend Lady who is a gorgeous Arabian Mare. Lady proved to be a wonderful model, very patient and cooperative. She is however the first model that I have shot that was grazing during the shoot. Lady and Miss Redrose were the perfect combination for a great shooting with a mix of artistic nudes and lifestyle images.
Lady got to spend the afternoon at pasture telling her other horse friends about her morning while I made the drive back to San Francisco. It was a very enjoyable morning of shooting taking advantage of the heat wave in Oregon. Temps that day were going to be close to 95 under a nearly perfect sky for lighting -- just a very slight diffusing haze and occasional high cloud. All in all a fantastic morning. Miss Redrose is a wonderful model with a great look that always gives her best for a shooting -- and she can park a horse trailer better than any guy I know.
"
Friday, September 9, 2011
Hiding
Let me give you my wisdom for free. "Nothing in life is really free", but that is an overused saying repeated by closed minded humans that did not know where to find the secrets. They are blinded by their pride. They think they know it all, but in fact all they know is what’s in front of them. They don’t let their mind out to play, they keep it on a strict choke chain.
Through my travels people have told me their secrets, I now know where the "free" hides. I Honor the secrets, I hold them close. you will have to figure this one out on your own .You have to look hard, if you don’t there is a good chance you will miss out. The reward is sweet but the hunt is bitter.
Waves rolling in and out , I hear the surf growling. The smell of seaweed is in the air. The stars are glowing like hot coals. The sky cuddles them like a black silky blanket. The void, the unknown.
The warm sand sifts between my toes, lost, the search party is out looking. But it’s been a long day and it looks like I’m stuck here another night. Stuck on my lonely island. Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault I ended up here. I could always light a flare in hope it would help them find me, but instead i sit quietly in the dark. Letting fate take it’s course. Whatever is meant happen will ultimately happen and I’m just along for the ride. My supplies are low, my stomach feels sour , craving energy. I will run on willpower. The most efficient thing in the world. It’s free for the taking. The moon watches down , I can feel the wisdom glow down from it. It warms my soul some while I close my eyes and try to rest.
Through my travels people have told me their secrets, I now know where the "free" hides. I Honor the secrets, I hold them close. you will have to figure this one out on your own .You have to look hard, if you don’t there is a good chance you will miss out. The reward is sweet but the hunt is bitter.
Waves rolling in and out , I hear the surf growling. The smell of seaweed is in the air. The stars are glowing like hot coals. The sky cuddles them like a black silky blanket. The void, the unknown.
The warm sand sifts between my toes, lost, the search party is out looking. But it’s been a long day and it looks like I’m stuck here another night. Stuck on my lonely island. Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault I ended up here. I could always light a flare in hope it would help them find me, but instead i sit quietly in the dark. Letting fate take it’s course. Whatever is meant happen will ultimately happen and I’m just along for the ride. My supplies are low, my stomach feels sour , craving energy. I will run on willpower. The most efficient thing in the world. It’s free for the taking. The moon watches down , I can feel the wisdom glow down from it. It warms my soul some while I close my eyes and try to rest.
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