Thursday, December 29, 2011
I never pictured it ending like this.
All I could do was gaze at the sky out of the window and watch it darken as the time passed
The day was just another idle day, how could it turn sharply like this?
My mind is foggy trying to remember what I did last.
I do all I can to stay calm, they always tell you to stay calm in these situations.
You can cuddle your anger like a raggedy childhood blanket from the past.
Silence floods the room filling every corner.
The level rises until everybody drowns
Tuesday, September 27, 2011
Thursday, September 22, 2011
but deep down that's the reason I like it here.
Surrounded by people but no obligations to connect
Muffled voices of the surrounding crowds comfort me
Everyone here is so different yet so the same
The sounds of heels and dress shoes hitting the terminal floor
Rushing by , always in a hurry.
The whiff of Cologne that reminds you of a moment from the past.
It tingles my noise and awakens my senses.
Numbers and times flash across the blue illuminated board
Connect me to my next flight
Here I go again.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Saturday, September 10, 2011
"08 September found me in the Salem, Oregon area to again be fortunate enough to shoot with the very lovely and talented Miss Redrose.
We worked during the morning with my new horse friend Lady who is a gorgeous Arabian Mare. Lady proved to be a wonderful model, very patient and cooperative. She is however the first model that I have shot that was grazing during the shoot. Lady and Miss Redrose were the perfect combination for a great shooting with a mix of artistic nudes and lifestyle images.
Lady got to spend the afternoon at pasture telling her other horse friends about her morning while I made the drive back to San Francisco. It was a very enjoyable morning of shooting taking advantage of the heat wave in Oregon. Temps that day were going to be close to 95 under a nearly perfect sky for lighting -- just a very slight diffusing haze and occasional high cloud. All in all a fantastic morning. Miss Redrose is a wonderful model with a great look that always gives her best for a shooting -- and she can park a horse trailer better than any guy I know.
Friday, September 9, 2011
Through my travels people have told me their secrets, I now know where the "free" hides. I Honor the secrets, I hold them close. you will have to figure this one out on your own .You have to look hard, if you don’t there is a good chance you will miss out. The reward is sweet but the hunt is bitter.
Waves rolling in and out , I hear the surf growling. The smell of seaweed is in the air. The stars are glowing like hot coals. The sky cuddles them like a black silky blanket. The void, the unknown.
The warm sand sifts between my toes, lost, the search party is out looking. But it’s been a long day and it looks like I’m stuck here another night. Stuck on my lonely island. Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault I ended up here. I could always light a flare in hope it would help them find me, but instead i sit quietly in the dark. Letting fate take it’s course. Whatever is meant happen will ultimately happen and I’m just along for the ride. My supplies are low, my stomach feels sour , craving energy. I will run on willpower. The most efficient thing in the world. It’s free for the taking. The moon watches down , I can feel the wisdom glow down from it. It warms my soul some while I close my eyes and try to rest.
Wednesday, September 7, 2011
Don’t let time run past you, when life puts you to the test, don’t resort to writing the answers on the palm of your hand. The ink will only smear and poison your blood. The clock explodes, springs and bolts fly outward into the dark night. The number’s that were so delicately painted on by the man, peel off in no time. Time takes no mercy on labeling your life with seconds and minutes. Meaningless words made to measure your journey on earth.
Tuesday, September 6, 2011
Friday, August 19, 2011
This was in my email today-
"My dearest Crystal, my closest friend,
You have it. You have it. You have it. You have it. I realize... you´ve got it.
Everyone wants to be where they´re supposed to be, that´s why some people go around the world to find it, but you don´t need to.
I see you, where you are... doing what you´re doing, and you´re doing it right.
You are comfortable in your skin, you´re doing exactly what you were meant to do, you´ve found your niche. Bravo. Your soul is immaculately beautiful, you. "
Wednesday, August 3, 2011
Tuesday, August 2, 2011
Saturday, July 30, 2011
Wednesday, July 27, 2011
A good friend of mine told me that home is where YOU are, no matter where you are, you are home.
Home (noun)-a environment offering security and happiness.
A lot of people think a home has to be a house. To me, home is trying to get some sleep on a crowded plane, home is responding to emails and networking online for more shoots while sitting in a cozy coffee shop, home is when I'm with my horses, they bring me my emotional comfort, Home is when I'm sitting on a bus listening to a strangers life story. Home is when I'm laughing with a friend until my ribs hurt. So there you have it! It may not be a traditional home, but it's my home.
Monday, July 18, 2011
Saturday, July 9, 2011
Thursday, July 7, 2011
Saturday, May 28, 2011
Thursday, May 26, 2011
Wednesday, May 18, 2011
Thursday, March 31, 2011
Tuesday, February 22, 2011
Next week I will be leaving for Oregon. I'm horrible at packing, I always put it off until last minute and then end up packing way to many things that I don't really need. I will be hauling my horse along for this trip since I will be staying in Oregon for a few months. I'm crossing my fingers for good weather along the way.